desperate

hummm , hummm ~ hye, hello n u watching E news .kah3 nk jd cm guiliana rancic lak . anyway , welcome back . i suppose to be at cameron highland now but unfortunately im at home , u know why cuz my dad's friends had something unreal to do , so let say it was cancelled . at first , i was very upset n broken heart cuz i put a lot of effort on this vacation but it turns wrong . at once i was thinking that actually it doesnt mind , kelantan un gets HIGHLAND what . hahak :D

so i have nothing to do so why not i writing this blog . this blog's title called "DESPERATE" . for those who did not recognize with this word u can go to google translate babe . but now im in nice mood so i will translate for u . desperate means terdesak . before i start telling u bout this , i wanna say a word to my lovely czen , yaya .

dear yaya : u say that i post something in my blog its kind of mluahkn prasaan ..yaya ohh yaya , poor yaya (poor here bkn mksud miskin , its kesian) hey the blog made for expressing emotion kn . thats the use of this blog . but i sure that im not totally mluahkn prassaan or STORY OF MY LIFE shaja. i mention bout general kn tp ad gk la aq selitkn my life lau x, aq xkn namekn this blog as my name . UNDERSTAND !! 

huh so back to the top, terdesak can divided in may ways . could be desperate in love, work, being popular ,studies, finding friends so on . words cant discribe how it feels so desperate . do u fell it ?? yeahh i know mesti prnah kn . infact i had a feeling being desperate (what a question) so lets start it >>> 

this scene that shows u desperate being popular n finding friends > n action < when u go to nearby store n u look some people playing with thier iphone n laptop u will go closer n say " hi sorry if i disturbing u guys , i see that u are doing stuff in your gadget is it . so i guess u have a social account ,right ? before that im santana . please add n follow my fb , twitter, blogger n lots more . right after u do this thing , im begging u to like/retweet my status, photos n whatever that i post in . when u like my stuff , i will like yours ! ahak ! if u feel that im desperate, guess what i dont care n if ur friends hate me , im glad to know it . u know why cuz i hate them either . ahak ,ahak !!" then the people starts to make a strange look n leave the store immediately . hahahak :D

scene ni mngmbrkn seseorg ngh trdesak nk dptkn ilmu >n action<
jessy : hey bleh x sy nk blajr sbelh awk ?
amanda : yup why not . have a seat
jessy : tq , btw ley x sy nk pnjm homework awk yg ckgu bg smalm , sy x brape nk catch up lar .
amanda : for sure !
jessy : then i nk borrow ur exercise book n ur dictionary cuz sy lpe nk bwk . bley ?
amanda : oh okay . no problm . anything more ??
jessy : oh yeah , i hmpir trlupe , i nk ur schedule studies ,tuition n lot of tips how to be a brilliant sb i nk jd bijak cm u
amanda : ok thats enough . i got to go now cuz i xsggup lyn org desperate cm u nie .

some of u guys da work but ad gk yg msih trcri2 nk kje ap . jgn trlalu desperate nk cri kje . juz find the right job n u will be happy . desperate in love , do not need to find ur love , cuz if ur true love existence so juz be calm n ur true love will find u . ohh so wonderful ~ xprlu trhegeh2 jual mruah dkt smua org hnya nk dptkn love . if ur love xsmpai2 jua . brulh korg try to connect with people .but sometimes i fell that is it being in a relationship with someone mean much to u ?? hurm ~ THINKING PEOPLE

ladies n getleman , mark my word "perfection can be boring . being urself more important" xpyh nk desperate sgtlh cuz u will look awfull dpn msyarkt .

 _ASSALLAMUALAIKUM _

-_- grr !

hew , ok to be honest with u aq wujudkn entry ni sb aq BORING TAHAP GABAN NAK MAMPOS . tlg bg suggestion sket aq kna wt pa skang ni . hurm checking my social network sudaa , mkn sudaa , lipat kain sudaa , men game pn sudaa . then what more can i do now

homework pn tadaa , huh -_- !! time ckgu bg homework mula la nk complain , ble tdaa pn still complain . MANUSIA .. aq plan nk msk contest hitz.fm SUPAHERO sb soaln dia mmg sng sgt . yee lh stakt nk teka tjuk lgu uh biasaa sjaa . da lh prizes dia uh lumayn gk , 600 hundreds n above gk . ok lh uh stakt nk shopping bju kn .

so now my mind say that i have to stop writing cuz i lack of info n somehow i just crapping myself n created silly issues . ByE

F . R . I . E . N . D . S

Assallamualaikum .. =0

hurm , yahaa ! perhaps this time i wanna share something relate with FRIENDS . now , everyone have friend , so do i (ayat mlayu di inggeriskn) but friends devided into two which is true friend n bad friend ... yeahh i mean badddddd frienddd !! =D

apperentlly , i got friends that not 100% understand me . yup i agree that we have to thank god that ad gk nk kwn ngn kite yg unperfect ni but doesnt it feels boring ? hey im asking u , cuz my friend sometimes x fhm my condition n my behaviour . hurm what do i say ? i kinda unpredictable n sometimes i gonna be crazy at no time . so maybe my friends a little bit awkward with my style but thats who i am .

ad stengah kwn aq ley la dbuat kwn baek (itu un stengh jee) . yg len uh, cmne nk ckp ek, okay but not okay . sometimes aq kwn ngn yg len uh mcm kwn xnk kwn jee cuz thier thought len ngn aq , then when i start to talk bout HOLLYWOOD stuff , diorg mcm xphm n buat mke mcm " for real" . so agk annoying 4 me sb they doesnt know what i love to .

more worst that they actually talk bout thier boyfriend n i pretty much like WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON  HERE ?? im sorry but if u nk talk bout ur boyfriend in front of everyone is the same that u wanna show off yg u ad pakwe . aq bkn jeles ke ap juz i trkejut coz my friends almost with this warak wabarkak , very unexpected yg diorg un ad pakwe . then thier pakwe mcm not my taste ,when they tnjuk their pakwe photo im like " where on earth this guy coming from?? " like seriously mmg xbrape nsem (sorry to say) n ble tgk this guy face rse mcm u cannot trust this guy babe . mke dia cm playboy dosh !

so agk sush la nk connect ngn my friends . kdg2 some people yg xkwn ngn aq but oftenly jmpe ,diorg lyn aq nothing with crap . mmg irritated gler but aq pkir cmni lau nk hilang rse mrh " xpe mybe diorg jeles ngn aq cuz i awesome sgt " hahak :) aq un trpikir gk apsal kwn aq x awesome, hilarious, gorgeous, clumsy cm icarly , BTR , victorious , glee , joe brooks , colton dixon n a lot more . mmg aq tringin sgt nk ad kwn cm diorg ni but its only can be dream .

thats why mmg hard nk cri true friends yg phm kite . but i slalu pegang kata2 ni " hold age 16 as long as u can" n " we get just one year become a senior ,so ENJOY !" haha amik dri glee laa :) so i guess smpai sni jee huu JANJI ROCK !!! (hehe scar thing)

love this scene ! love glee . hope u guys will be my friends soon . finggercross ~

what a fate

hyep everyone , cuti sklah da abis n back to school la nmpknyee . actually aq nk bgtau korg yg ad prkra yg mmg tidk djgka akn brlku pd diri aq .

aq sbnrnya pegi uma czen aq tuk amik something but tetiba aq tgk lauk nmpk best je , perut aq un mle nk brkeroncong so aq decide nk g amik nasi lam periuk . time tu lk my czen ngh msk stupid chicken n UNFORTUNATELY , aym uh trmerecik n trkna kt pipi aq . so malang ! then aq un mnjerit kesakitn ...

skang on my face ad sdikit scar , sket je . jgn risau , xmsuk ICU un . if u skali tgk je mke aq mmg xnmpk obvious sgt but len la if u stare kt dpn mke aq . haha mybe ad hikmah dseblik smua ni . aq xslhkn ketentuan ALLAH but agk malang coz the victim is me . jd mke aq da jd mcm ROCKERS plak . if kwn2 aq tnye " whats wrong with ur face" jwb aq " haha br lps belasah org" . my mom ckp mybe this technically damn scar akn hilang but takes time r sket .


but actually ble aq ad this scar right on my face , my sister slalu panggil aq "harry potter" . haha crazy huh ? but awesome gk dpt pnggiln cmtu . hihi .btw harry ad scar on his forehead but aq on my right cheek . ahak .


itu saja tuk entry kli ni . ok JANJI ROCK !! (what a fate)

things that making me weird ?

assallamuaikum .. anis here ! yeahh i know it is always me cuz this is my blog , so exactly la aq sorg je ley tulis kn . then these days im totally feel that theres a lot of things that making me weird . actually not only these days but usually every single day in my life , there was something that i was wondering n the "the hows n whys" keep coming on my mind .

ok nk djdkn cite , aq byk fikr psl PEOPLE'S HABITS . sbnrnyee aq mls nk pikir all this things but ia mmbuatkn aq kna fikir , lgpn ap gnanye otak lau bkn tuk brfikir .

 : bnda yg mmbuatkn aq peliks :

smile thing  : so smile , ap yg buat aq curious sgt sal bnda ni . it juz bile aq tgk org zmn dlu2 bile amik gmbr  msti pose nmpk gigi . but skang org cm nk snyum pn x ikhls . its like cm ad org pkse tuk snyum . but x tau la kn time uh dia ngh xda mood ke ap . honestly wa ckp lu , aq bnci tgk org amik gmbr mcm tah pape . gmbr x clear , x sharp tmbh lk ngn snyum x ikhls , ohh horror beb  . then skang lak ske sgt amik gmbr lam tands . im like yeahh , i know u br lps msk tands but jgn la show yg u really go to tands . hello tands not a suitable place to shoot . so dh2 la go to tnds n take pic coz ia x mngmbrkn pape pn . its waste time , waste energy but len la korg nk buang hajt ke ap . hahak :P ok yg pic kt bwh ni , aq nk describe kn , people zman dlu ngn skrg . i know u guys da notice an . look at the lips bebeh , i mean smile .. :D

angkat thing : ok angkat here doesnt mean " carry " . it is like "abg angkt , adek angkt , kak angkt" . so i think u guys da bley catch up da an . now rmai yg ad this "angkat thing" but 4 me its not good sgt lh . i mean we all freind but doesnt mean we have to use this "angkt thing" dsbbkn fktor umo . yup i know kte org mlayu kna sling hormt mnghormti ,. but x rse awkward er ble org pggil kte with this kind of thing . ok bg aq mybe a little bit strange sb dia xda drh dging un ngn kte but dia treat like im her real sister . lau i , mesti like this " oh sorry la ye , we still can be freind but do not use "akak" with me . okay .

cute face thing : for real , aq mmg xpdai buat mke cute . than ble aq tgk kbykkn org buat mke cute , aq da bley tau da diorg inspired by spe . KOREA HAPRAK .. erm ~ speaking bout korea , i think la korea ni cm nothing more than effortless . mmg u feel like wanna throw something je kt face diorg . auww totally fake ! than tyra banks said that , " if u want to be the most top model in the fashion industries , do not over too cute and personality more important " . exactly we not meant to be a model but take it serious bout the cute look's issues .

vanila coklat thing : this thing aq xprlu mention lg cuz i bet everybody know this drama . drama ni mmg ngh hitz n aq mmg xtau apsl it is so hitz smpaikn my fren un asyik ckp psl  this thing all this while . slalunyee aq tnye diorg apsl diorg minat glerr ngn cite ni jwpnnye sme je " drama uh sweet larh " . oh godddd ! please .. one day aq cbe nk tgk cite uh sweet stare mna sgt , then guess wht , mmg xsweet lgsung . baek aq lyn glee lg bez . lgpn drama mlayu , ap la sgt . hahak :D  furthermore , the guy n the girl yg lakonkn wtak utama uh xda la terror sgt blakon , yup artis br , wht do u expect kn .then when i open my social network , kbykkn status mcm ni "oh so sweet larh cite ni . nk jd mcm zara ngn amir la " oh my goodness , i need somewhere to throw out . ahahahak ! glad that cite uh nk abis da ..

language thing : maybe some of u da perasn , aq slalu ckp english lau aq tulis blog . actually , aq bkn nk show off yg aq (boley lar) ckp english , but mmg lau aq ngn kwn2 , czen un msti ad gk trkeluar bhasa asing ni . its come naturally baby ( haha pretend like selena gomez jp ) . lgpn aq ske tgk cite org putih , sb uh jd trlekat kt lidah ni . but i am staying at kelantan (oh god i cant believe i admit all this) , so its not normal au lau kte tetiba ckp english in my negri . example : u ngh ckp ngn kwn2 u alls , tetiba u kuarkn ad 1ayt yg jrg org mlayu dgr , then ur frenz like buat awkward movement n riak muka yg x mnyokong lgs . so mesti u rse irritated an .,
thats the fact that i have to face tiap2 ari . yeahh i know some of u scare nk speaking tkot slh but at least try .  english is fun beb !


#im sorry if i ad sntuh sensiviti sespe but this is the fact that we all have to agree . BTW pic kt bwh ni xda kna mngena ngn tjuk aq ni . kbyee !

 ~we are all family ~

my new l@@k

 ASSALLAMUALAIKUM ***

 ( klau xjwb dosa , lau jwb dpt phala )

ok lets make this blog to a whole new level coz im gonna tell u bout my new look . ahak =) actually bkn new look sgt , aq da lma pkai all this stuff but yeahhh people now dress up mcm2 gya , then i plak gonna do something yg rare n org akn trpikir cm " really " . so jgn shock bile u guys see this unrandom style coz i like to be different . haha => aq akn listkn my cloth from head to toe . half of my cloth my mak sedara bg from uk . so very rare nk jmpe this kind of cloth . one more thing , aq xpndai sgt mix n match cloth tp aq tau korg lg terror . so if u dont mind mybe aq ad sket langgr fashion rules . haha

#pegi mall pnya style 

 tudung : jarum emas exclusive
tops : L.O.G.G
cardigan : sa -nec
pants : ladylike jeans
shoes : ( buy it around KL )




#casual style

tudung : jamat lasani
tops : secret possessions
cardigan : ( buy at store outlets )
skirt : (mak sedara bg ) ahak :D

 


 #go to kenduri khawin style

tudung : (czen bg )

jubah : ID perempuan

so done da aq tunjuk 3 bloody different style . aq tunjuk ni un sje2 je sb aq da abs exam so nk tulis la blog sket lgpn aq ad byk subjek , its hard 4 me sbnrnye but aq tmpuhi je la . mybe ad hikmh dseblik smua ni . happy holiday ( wlupn cuti 1 minggu je , its worth it 4 me ) . ok thats all from me . see u soon on the next entry  

zzzzzzzzz !

listen this >> this guy gonna makes u smile at no time . its not just the fact that he is ridiculously good looking but he is trully talented n original . he is the kind of guy that you look at him and wanna pat God on his back and say "WOW.. I'm amazed" . no wonder his songs inspired me a lot . ENJOY !

i find the light in u

my sweet 16

all right ! assalamualikum ... hello hamora  ...

aq da umo 16 !! yahoo .. xcya sbnrnya tp buat cye je la . actually aq mkin runsing n tkot . do u know sb ap ?? aq runsing sb aq da mkin bsr skang so kna la brkelakuan cm REMAJA with the sopan sntun n lmah ,mbut pnya style . on the other case , aq da xley nk men game n tgk crtun mcm dlu2 dh . ye laa nnti ad plak yg ckp "da bsr tp prangai still cm budk"  huu tp aq lyn je , ad aq kesh . haha . tkot un ad rse gk sb da mkin bsr ni mkin la byk tggungjwb aq nyee !

k my sweet 16 kli ni buat kt one n only  my house cuz theres no place like home :) pstu guest aq my czen 2org jee . reasons sb aq ajk hnya 2org cuz aq xske rmai2 mai serbu uma aq . cm knduri khawin , oh please ! dont ever dare mention bout this knduri stuff . kdg2 aq rse ksian ble rmai sgt org nk rushing dptkn diorg pnya meal . hurm ;( so happy birthday to me once again . actually bufday aq 1.3.1996 but aq wt party ari ni . korg mesti trlints lam kpale korg : eh tarikh lhir sma ngn JB la . haah mmg sma un . bg aq yg kongsi date ngn dia rse cm stinks but cool gk la . hahak !

ok time 4 mkn !!!! meh tgk menu sket ..

ni kek aq woo !

ikan bkr special pnya maa ! nk buat ikn siakp sbnrnya tp ikn siakp xda , bkn musim ikan tuuh . tp xpa asl IKAN .;.
 

haa ni aym msk lemon , aq yg buat . haha bufday girl yg kna buat pulk .

tomyam putih yuu ~

hah ble da mkn kte fotoshoot sket ...

 me with something flying on the sky . ahak :D

 me with yaya ..

me with bie ..

me with aina ( adek aq laa , nmpk sme tinngi sb dia pkai high heel )

ok i admit tudung aq xbrape nk btol an . hahak . tp whats a big deal ? whos cares bout it ? lantk la kn . being different than anyone makes u standout . btol honestly . ye la slau nye aq pkai tudg arini , ariani , or pape je la .ikot la korg nk pggil pa un . aslkn TUDUNG waa !

so when we had a party totaly la kn kna ad cm sdikit chaos . n ni some gelagt kteorg yg crazy bgai .. ahak

wow !!! what a big cake !!!

craping ourselve again and again .. hahak

smile no matter what . =D

 haha bajet artis n manager .. then kt bwh ni bjet gengster la konon . hahak . lwk siot !

hah , jd mcm tu je la al - kish nyee !! bye ; peace no war bebehs >=< entry pnoh ngn pic sb mls nk taip byk2 . ahak , uhuk , ihik ,ohok .